In a metaphorical sense, hitting the wall is defined by the Cambridge Dictionary as “reaching a point when you are running, exercising, playing sports, etc. where you are so physically tired you feel you cannot continue.” Now I don’t do sports, so I’m adopting the term for the blogging medium. I’ve hit the wall with blogging. And I’m hitting it hard.
I have never been one to compare my blog to any other blog. In fact, I’ve never been one to compare myself to anyone else – even when others have. However, recently that seems to be changing. There are many factors that may contribute to this: a higher consumption of sugar and caffeine that leads to an increase in anxiety, loss of passion, stress from University assignments, or a lack of certainty about my future. Who knows, it could be all of the above.
But it’s starting to have an effect on my motivation. I see the number of views/likes on a post and then compare them to the views/likes on a similar blog and it’s starting to get me down. I’ve been blogging on a mostly scheduled basis – with the occasional hiatus – since February 2016. And while I’m incredibly happy for every blogger that builds an audience and gets hundreds of views and comments, I wish I was one of them.
I understand that it takes time. But I see sites that have been around for the same amount as mine, sites with hundreds of followers, and I keep asking myself “what am I doing wrong?” Probably nothing. Possibly everything.
I’m not writing this to be all “SHOW ME LOVE NOW!!”. This is just a thought that has been on my mind a little bit over the past few weeks. It’s something that hits every writer, Youtuber, creative mind at some point. And I know that some people only wish to read certain types of content, like Book Reviews. But, because I am either reading books incredibly slowly, or reading books that came out years and years ago and have been reviewed to death, I haven’t been releasing many reviews.
So, I’m hitting a wall, finding it difficult to muster enough motivation to create new and engaging content as a result of some slight insecurities. Nothing major.
I wish I could promise that I will leave this funk behind and begin creating ‘better’ content. But I can’t. I’ve made promises in the past regarding blogging goals and have failed to follow through.
While this won’t indefinitely stop me from making posts, I think it would be a good idea for me to step back and brainstorm. I would love for my posts to have more to them, more time dedicated to research and design, instead of publishing under-whelming pieces.